Last night was very, very sad and I could not help my reaction. D. not only shaved off his beautiful Beard but, also his Mustache and all facial hair around them. I admit, I was in tears and making my sarcastic comments as I told him I need time to get used to this. The man I fell in love with was rugged with a Beard that got fuller every day. I loved to pull on that Beard when we kissed and run my fingers through it. Plus, his hair went with the Beard and now, he will definitely have to get new glasses because the frames just don’t work.
I have mixed emotions about him accepting the first job offered with that clean-shaven requirement, although, I know it is a good job at a hotel. He told me he is willing to look for another one now that he has one. One that is okay with him having a Beard. But, what would he tell them? This is the Beard I want to re-grow? Will you allow this in the future?
I sound selfish, but, it is how I feel at the moment. I know relationships are not about looks but when you have been with someone for almost half a year and they suddenly do something like this; it shocks your system. Especially, when it is not for medical reasons.