Decision, Divorce, Husband, Marriage

Waking Up Scared

Sometimes I wake up scared.  Scared that he might be coming in the house while I am asleep.   The main light was on this morning.  I never fall or stay asleep with that light on, I think there is a new drink in the fridge that is definitely not mine. .

D. If it is you: I need it to STOP!   Playing games and scaring me will not help me change my decision the way you want it to go. It just makes me want to run away sooner.

Last night,  I was upset and doubting my decision.  However,  I know in my heart,  the decision is right. I have gotten stronger and I know;  even you will survive the pain.

3 thoughts on “Waking Up Scared”

  1. In my opinion, take it for what it is worth. I am not in your shoes.

    I disagree with the statement, I know in my heart this decision is right.

    I don’t think it is right. You haven’t been married a year yet. So just a few short months ago you were in Love and life was wonderful. Then a bump in the road and bam you are getting a divorce and selling your house and moving again. Changing churches.

    I understand you put your foot down and said no more pot and from the sounds of it he used again and you caught him. I also understand there is other reasons too.

    What happened to “in sickness and in health” to death do us part? I don’t think ‘he didn’t do what I told him to do,’ falls into that part.

    Being single isn’t fun, yes I am single by choice and plan on staying that way. But I have roommates and my kids to fill that emotional gap. Still at times it sucks big time.

    Sorry I not trying to belittle you or tell you what to do. I really am not sure why I feel the need to say I don’t agree. I don’t live your life and I don’t know all the stuff that surrounds this decision. I don’t even know why I feel the need to say anything at all. It is your life and you will live it.

    Prayers for both of you as you navigate this difficult time. Whatever you decide to do and how you do it , I will still be here. Hugs and more prayers for you.

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    1. Unfortunately, more of his past has been discovered that I never knew. This is now a lot more than just the Pot issue. I cannot reveal it on here. You can agree or disagree on this life choice. That is no longer questioned. Knowing now what I didn’t then; it is seriously over. I value your friendship however please don’t post anymore comments about my decision. Please comment only to the specific post or not at all. I would have deleted this but wanted to reply.

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    2. Unfortunately, more of his past has been discovered that I never knew. This is now a lot more than just the Pot issue. I cannot reveal it on here. You can agree or disagree on this life choice. That is no longer questioned. Knowing now what I didn’t then; it is seriously over.

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