Today was weird.
I took the day for myself and didn’t talk to people (except 2). I spent a lot of time crying, thinking and praying. I refuse to stop the annulment. He needs to be on his own and be responsible. But, as time gets closer I am so scared of losing him forever.
We are still friends now, but it is so damn hard.
Why won’t he stop the drugs and get clean? He had been clean for two years before we met. I need him to clean up because he wants to and prove he can stay that way. I need to put this in God’s hands because only God knows what happens next.