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Dreams Not Helping

I wanted this to be my first positive post but I’m not sure how.  I woke up from a horrible nightmare, obviously my subconscious doesn’t want me to recover from this right away, and I really didn’t think I would. I mean, I’m really trying.

I really think I’m going to need professional help  which is really sad because every relationship I have or had it seems like when it was over I had to go to counseling or therapy or somebody to talk to to get over it.

I think part of this is because my parents, well my mother especially, ruled me with the Roman Catholicism which rules by guilt. She did a lot of things that are definitely not acceptable in this day and age, and I got myself involved with men that did the same type crap.

Then, when I finally stopped being a doormat, I believed I found the one again.

I want to be able to post pictures and videos and things here but I don’t know how. I’m not really that technologically Okay computer literate, no that’s not it either, how about WordPress literate? I’m going to see if I can add something to this post anyway.

I’m sorry this isn’t as positive as you would like, but guess what?  I’m positive I’m going to heal from these horrible fractured bones I have. How’s that for a start? I mean, my left knee and my right wrist are both fractured.

I thank God everyday for the pain and I try to make this a positive experience and I’m positive that I’m going to get through this. I’m going to get through this pain of broken bones and I’m going to get through this emotional pain when I have nightmares and tell those nightmares to Just Stop. Please stand with me on this, seriously, * Nightmares Go Away and don’t come back. You’re messing with my mind and I don’t want it anymore.”

So anyway, in the words to my favorite song;

What doesn’t kill you makes you Stronger-Stand a little taller- Doesn’t mean I’m lonely when I’m alone-  What doesn’t kill you makes a fighter- Go a little higher-   Doesn’t mean it’s over when you’re gone.

What doesn’t kill you makes you Stronger, Stronger

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