Spent all day Monday (after doctor) at Social Security Office and yesterday, at DMV changing everything back to my Maiden Name. Today, I will continue with the bank, etc.
How do I feel? Well, I held off as long as I could. There is no point in going over how much I want him to get help. I want to cry since it is cleansing yet… I know God is with me and I did what I had to do.
Do I still love him? Yes, at the moment but I don’t love his stupid choices or the fact he gave up our Marriage to play with drugs and illegal graffiti. He was starting to take off with selling his artwork and I was proud of him!
What now? I keep going forward. I work on healing physicals and emotionally. I get closer to God. I continue to pray for D and work on losing the obsession. I am not looking for anyone. I get to know me, again.
Too Much, Too Little, Too Late
* The sickness was side effects from my meds.