About Trip

If you have never tried Air BNB, I highly suggest it. It’s an app where people post rooms and housing for rent instead of a hotel/motel.

I stayed with an amazing family.  My room was their Library so I could read to my hearts content. Anyway, I saw my cat and made friends with the girl who will be taking care of her, I also went to Knott’s Berry Farm, dinners and brunches and karaokying with friends. Surprisingly, I even slept solid every night which I haven’t done much since being alone.

On another note, do you ever feel like your life is a Carnival and you are not sure you want to go on a Roller Coaster a 2nd time?  Especially when you know parts of the track are faulty and they have only started to fix it.

I think I am there, right now.  I am not sure if I should leave the Carnival completely since it just reopened. I don’t know if it will ever reopen again or if I want it to.  I do know I need to wait and think seriously about riding this roller coasterIMG_20170615_194705.jpg again.

*This is Firepie and me.

Church Service Generated Emotions

Church was rough last night.  It brought back memories and feelings I am trying to suppress.

 I have a problem with churches telling us to confront a sister/brother in Christ who is sinning and/or to continue until it is rectified.  They are creating a world of people who believe they are better then others.  Unless, you are talking about The Ten Commandments, what one considers a ‘sin’ is not always the same.  Reporting people, can lead to anger and hurt,as well as, stay with someone for a long time.  

 I really miss D. I seriously wonder how I am doing this every day.  I miss our love and the fun we had and I miss how safe I felt…at First.   But, I also want to smack the shit out of him!  

How dare he put drugs before our marriage and happiness!  How dare he omit telling me about some of the lowest times of his life and unlock the door to go back to smoking pot while married to me!  How dare he not try to fight to save his marriage when he had the chance and refuse to get help for his addiction! 

 When will my heart, soul and mind heal?When will this emotional and mental pain end?  Just some thoughts that were generated from last nights church service.

Trip Ahead

My BFF amd I are going on a trip.  However, this is not necessarily a pleasure trip.  We are going to a Research Hospital so they can research Propionic Acidemia, the disease I was born with.  From what I know I cannot metabolize the amino acid “Glycine”. It can lead to suppressed immune system and other issues.  I am the 1st or 2nd eldest living with this so perhaps what they find will help others that survive.  We are taking an extra day for pleasure.. to see the area and to connect with a friend I lost contact with for over 7 years.

 

Vacation.. All I Ever Wanted…Go Go’s

Most vacations you think of fun and adventure. Not medical tests. But. I am going to Maryland for a research study on my disease. Propionic Acidemia.  i have never been to Maryland and all the testing is outpatient so it will still be fun.  Especially, since we are staying an extra day to enjoy the sights.